My Journey so far…

I visualize my life as a river, with each experience serving as a tributary shaping its course. My early years in Zimbabwe were filled with a sense of freedom - being outdoors, connected to nature, and surrounded by simple, grounded ways of living that quietly shaped my values and sense of presence. As I grew older, my voice began to soften, often lost in the currents of external expectations and the silent impact of childhood experiences and teenage bullying. These years introduced more turbulent waters, moments of self-doubt, anxiety, and feeling not enough, which began to shape how I related to myself and the world around me.

In my twenties, I experienced moments of awakening - a burst of flow that ignited my journey into conscious and spiritual living. It was a time of contrast, like waves of colour and darkness - depression and anxiety, happiness and joy, adventure and connection, love and confusion. There were moments of deep peace, confidence, and expansion, yet these were often followed by periods of stagnation, as unresolved experiences from my past surfaced. I found myself navigating feelings of not being enough, questioning my worth, and searching for clarity in who I was and where I was going. Despite the uncertainty, I remained devoted to practices that grounded me - meditation, journaling, yoga, dance, movement, nature, and energy work. Even when the river felt unpredictable, these practices became anchors, gently guiding me back to myself.

In my early thirties, the river began to change course. I started a new job at age 30, and for the first few years, I poured myself into work. By the fourth year, I began to feel burnout- high cortisol levels from the stress of my environment, long work hours, and the challenges of living in a third-world country were taking a toll on my body and nervous system. During my second year of working, I completed my first yoga teacher training. This experience became a lifeline, giving me tools to reconnect with my body, calm my mind, and nurture my nervous system. I began to explore breathwork, meditation, and movement practices more deeply, learning how these tools could help release stress, build resilience, and create space for self-reflection. At the same time, I made a conscious decision to face my fears and step into life more fully. I jumped out of a plane, went scuba diving, traveled through seven countries in Africa, journeyed solo to Thailand, embraced veganism/vegetarianism, and gave up nicotine and alcohol for a period. Each adventure was a tributary feeding my river, teaching me courage, presence, and awareness. I left my job and launched my own business at 34. This new venture was exciting, there was more time and space for me to go deeper with reflection on my relationship with myself. I spent time letting go of early life trauma, anger, anxiety, grief, shame, and feelings of not belonging. Through journaling, meditation, movement, breathwork, affirmations, gratitude, and self-compassion, I began to surrender to the flow of life and cultivate self-love, acceptance, and peace. I truly felt I was living in my true self…

Life started to flow more smoothly as I healed from emotionally abusive relationships - with others and, most importantly, with myself. I found my voice, developed stability, and reshaped the river of my life into a stronger, more resilient current. Each bend and curve became a testament to resilience and growth, showing that even the most turbulent waters can lead to calm, clarity, and strength. Through this ongoing journey, I’ve learned that we all have the power to transform our rivers. Who we are is constantly changing, just like a river, and by embracing the flow of life with courage, grace, and self-awareness, we can navigate challenges while cultivating purpose, presence, and empowerment.

My river felt on a course, honing in more to exploring safety, digestion and the feeling of wellness in my body, building self-worth, setting firm boundaries, exploring abundance, and continuing to love and accept myself. I am learning to shift the way I use my voice in different situations and fully embrace gratitude. Life has shifted into a phase of sacrifice, parallel to an oxbow of the river, where I work within my purpose but in an environment that feels extremely uncomfortable and unsafe. Despite feeling stuck and anxious, with my nervous system out of sync and a desire to return to my river’s path in my own business, I recognize that the oxbow is part of the river’s journey. This period is proving invaluable as it provides the financial support needed to fully dedicate myself to my business and shape its future direction with an amazing Spiritual Business Coach. I also thought that it would be assisting me in starting my own family and deepening my self-understanding, all while working with an Integrated Counselor to continue letting go of past challenges. I am excited for the next part of my river’s path - marriage, a big move overseas, and rebranding and living my purpose helping you step into your journey of building your self worth and embodying love, joy and connection with gratitude.

All the excitement disappeared - this past year brought a river of challenges unlike any before. I celebrated love and connection through my wedding, yet faced deep grief with the passing of my Gran, a close friend and a part of me. I moved countries twice - clearing, selling, reboxing, and sending my life to Germany to be with my husband, navigating the legal and emotional complexities of relocation. Alongside this, I experienced personal loss, illness, and isolation, navigating a new country without a support network and facing moments where life did not feel fully aligned with my values and who I am. At times, this year felt like I have been living a life that didn’t fully reflect who I am - a bitter pill to swallow.

Now, my river has to finding new direction. I am exploring what it means to feel safe in my body, to support my nervous system, to rebuild my sense of self-love and worth, and to live with greater awareness and presence. I am learning what setting boundaries means again, to hear what myself needs even though it sometimes feels like I can’t hear anything, and to try honour both where I am and where I am being guided. Each bend in my river - each challenge, loss, and moment of stillness - is shaping and will shape who I am becoming. I believe it will deepen my compassion, strengthen my resilience, and remind me that even in the most turbulent waters, there is always the possibility of growth, clarity, and a return to self. Sometimes it is just being in the turbulent and trying your hardest not to fight the turbulence.